home sick

so last week was spent with two sick boys. i knew i would get sick in the coming days, but i didnt anticipate how sick! i have not been this sick in quite some time. because of this, i had to do something terribly hard for me - ask for some days off of work. it was quite a struggle to do and caused a great deal of anxiety, but in the end I have been granted the two days i would have worked this week off. my job is so hard to be sick with, because if im not there one of the parents has to call in sick. oi. and this fact does not rest well on someone like me, who takes everyone's needs into consideration and has a terrible amount of guilt. but this is what i need. my therapist was the one who urged me to do it, and even said she could write a letter if i needed it (i still want to take her up on that offer even though i am in the clear!). i also called into the hospital and talked to an advice nurse who gave me some cough medicine which i am not supposed to drive while using. if not for that medicine i would have to work! 

while having job talk started - i need to figure out how to let them know i am not going to be working for them forever. i need to set a date. because if i dont, i will just keep working and working and never get where i want to in life. granted, im not entirely sure where that is but i know i dont want to nanny forever! i just happen to really like this family. perhaps ill need to devote some time of my therapy session to that next week. im not sure if i could, will have a lot to cram in as i missed my appt this morning (i just could not get out of bed). 

pictures of baking are coming - they are on my computer but there is one problem... i am baking again tonight! i got a bag of cherries the other week that i wasn't too diligent about eating, and cherries always make me think of making cobblers, so i rumaged through the fridge and have put together a mix of cherries, strawberries, blueberries, and a pear and will make the cobbler for my parents in just a moment. 

why cherries remind me of cobblers is that we have a sour/pie cherry tree in our backyard and the only think to do with them is bake! so years and years ago while trying to figure out what to do besides pie, i stumbled upon jamie oliver's cobbler recipe and ta-da! and just today, after all these years of having this tree, my dad decided it was time for it to go and replace it with an eating cherry tree. he had been thinking about it for a while but made his idea public while him and i were at a garden store. 

oh, off to do something with my dad, then cobbler making time.