This may be slightly scattered, but that is how my head is; full of thoughts that never finish. I wanted to just write down and share what I could.
I bought what?!?
So I had to do me some grocery shopping today, and it didn't go so well, I just wasn't feeling to great today. On top of that I have to add to what I've been eating but hadn't really given it much thought, so it just added more anxiety as I was trying to figure out my new eating plan. Well, I had been spotting this certain nut mix for a couple weeks, yet never bought it. See, I have this rule that everything has to be as simple as possible. The ingredients for "nuts" ought to just be the nut, no added oil or salt or sugars or what not. Just the nut. These landed in my cart today:
Those ingredients certainly list more than just the nuts!
I stepped outside that little comfort zone and had them. They weren't bad either! I had them tonight, on the day I bought them - they didn't sit around in the cabinet for a week or so.
Build up to the letdown
The boys and I have been going to the pool a lot recently, we went three days this week (out of the four I'm with them, and the pool is closed on Monday). Well, there's been a bit of guy eye candy for me there lately! Yesterday, for some reason unknown to me, I found myself smiling at said guys with smiles in return, and kind of talked to one - he's a lifeguard and asked the boys names as he had forgotten but recognized them from last year. Well, I introdcued myself also and said a bit about the boys. Eh, baby steps. Well, that left me feeling good, the day as a whole not just the kind of sorta convo. Well, on my drive home after I was let off from work I was listening to The Postal Service. I had started them in the car with the boys (C dug them!!), but being alone and listening to them was different. I got really sad - well more of a sinking pit kind of sad. They make me think a lot of a boy, a boy I truly cared for and messed things up due to being sick. He's gone and that's that, but he's forever in my mind. For the first time in a really long time, I actually missed a relationship. I have been isolating myself so much and it felt okay, it felt like what I wanted and needed and was just going to be. But those memories of not only him but all the others just made me miss it, made me miss that person I was. I woke up this morning with such an odd feeling, a longing for a guy to cuddle up next to and kiss. I havent wanted that, and now I need it.
My sister bought these cute as hell molds for making ice cream sandwiches and I of course couldn't help but making them for her! I made them using the blonde cookie recipe and cheesecake ice cream from a great shop near by. Everyone seems to have enjoyed them very much, I ought to make more soon!
Incase of thought...
I am amused by this, my purse consists of four note pads and four pens! Yet I still never manage to write down most of what I need to.
And oh yeah! I am due in for some baking soon! Probably next weekend - oh no it has to be this weekend as my parents will be going out of town. I bought some cookies today at Whole Foods, but with their yumminess factor and my sister over, I can get away with cookies this weekend.
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