my thoughts keep swirling and twirling around about how nothing looks right, nothing on my body is right. every part had too much on it, and it no longer looks good. it can't look good. it is no long just straight and narrow; my limbs taper from little up. the bones and ligaments once so clearly defined are softly shown. it does look rather elegant, but the feeling it awful. these thoughts have began to creep back up in my mind, i didn't even realize it. but ive spent days now just focusing on all the wrong parts and being ever so frustrated at how slow change can take, or even if the change is being taken. for my eyes just keep seeing all the extra, no matter what amount it's in. extra is extra.
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I've been feeling like this lately too... but the 'right' we're used to seeing isn't right at all. I guess it takes a lot of time to get used to difference, change in ourselves.. but you can do it!! Life has come so far lately, don't fall back on that shit xxxxxxx
ReplyDeletevery true. i guess it sometimes just gets to be too much and that life seems like the only relief. it's hard living day in and day out having to tell myself my eyes are false and to just live, but what matters is that i do it, hoping ill believe it one day.
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