My work week has changed - which, overall, is for the best. I had become just too overworked and was tired and not in a good mood all the time. So I work Monday morning - Thursday evening, plus I don't have to do a ton of extra household chores - they've hired a house cleaner. The only down side is a pay cut, but, well, I think it's worth it - for my sanity. The odd thing is, these terms were what I had brought up with with my T, so it made me a little paranoid that they were fulfilled without me saying anything! I need to realize, though, that I am probably not wired and followed and that the family has just come to know me and could figure out how to make work work for me! Or so I hope... ;)
So I have been trying to get back into running for a couple months now - uhg! So frustrating how hard it is this time around. I loved, and was good, at running in high school. Well, I had been finally feeling better about it the past two weeks, feeling hopefuly and positive about it and really thinking it could work. Then yesterday I had just an awful work out! I could barely keep it up and my legs felt like they were splintering at each stride. It makes me so dicouraged (and not positive!) about the whole thing - like is it really worth it? Is my body at a loss for ever getting back into the sport? Oi, it's so troubling to my mind. I wish it was easy this time around, I wish my body had just snapped back into it and remembered how to power through it. But nope, it has to be a tough, rough challenge just like most other parts of my life.
Yesterday, C and I had a long stretch of time for ourselves. He typically would take a nap - but not yesterday. We did an errand - which he simply loves! Then it was home for some chores then, the best part, we got a chance to play! We went out back and he drove his cars around and I wandered, then found a ball and started to kick it. That grabbed his interest and he joined it, we had good fun for a while. Then I remembered we had some water balloons leftover from the day before (that's a story to share!) so I brought them out and we threw them on the ground, tossed them up in the air, and stomped on them. It was nice to just kick back a bit and have some fun.
The day prior, E had a playdate with an old friend who had just moved back into town. The mum, daughter/sister, and the boys them came over later. They all played around a bit inside, until they found the bag of water balloon and some squirt guns in the play room. It was a perfect activity as the weather was hothot here! The boys played with the water guns while the sister and I filled up the balloons. Swwet, sweet childhood. It was nice to have that family back - I really like them. The kids are great, and the mum talks to me and I to her. They are just so lovely, all around.
Today, planned, is for the boys and I to go see the movie Earth later. I hope that works out. I hate just having to sit around... but oh well.
I'm still back and forth on Tahoe! Ahhhh! I'll be okay, it'll be okay. Plus I think my sister would really enjoy me to be there.
I think you weighed up the pros and cons and decided there were more pros? I do hope you go, i think even if its hard something positive WILL come out of it (if you let it/look for the positives)..
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, absent due to moving house busyness but still reading :)
OHH i found banana options today and picked up all they had left so i can save you two to try in your next package if you like banana flavor things :) xxxx