sunday night, where's my yawn?

i am officially on vacation, a much needed one. i got the word today that i can have the week off as the family is going to so cal on tuesday, and i ought to just take the whole week off for rest. and rest in what i intend to do. along with a few other tasks i have written down on a list. most important is to do my taxes! i hope it wont be too time consuming or headache inducing as it always seems it will be. i have also got a few crafts to do, yay. i am going to paint and decorate two terra cotta pots for my parents easter "baskets," assemble all the baskets - i also have to figure out who will be where when as easter is not a big deal here and it doesnt seem like theres a gathering for it. but my sister is coming this week, wednesday and thursday, and may not come back on the weekend. also i am going to make a bunny hutch/house with gingerbread! gingerbread is my favorite at christmas time, why not bring it to another holiday? so i have to first make the plan out of cardboard to use as a template as i am baking the gingerbread, tis not prebaked and cut. and i have some scrapbooking i can do. 

i am excited to have time off. i think what led to my rough days last week was exhaustion, as i was having a terrible time sleeping. there is more to it, i know, but i think getting some rest will help me deal with those other aspects. i also spent a good couple hours yesterday crafting a food plan and did the food shopping for it today and am determined to stick to it and get on some sort of track. i need all this, i cannot let myself just fall apart. there is this bit of me inside that wants a complete breakdown of my life so i can just lay in bed all and forget the worries of the world, but i know that wont get me anywhere and i do want to go somewhere. i dont know where that somewhere is, but i will only figure it out by keeping on going and not just hiding under my covers, no matter how cosy that is.